Cars/Girls/Jobs

Well I’m up to late doing nothing worth wile. I don’t know ware I am supposed to go, but I know of many places that don’t want me. I am still waiting on so many things I know I’m only 21, but I already feel tempted to give up and marry the first girl that will have me take the first job that will hire me and just drift off into a boring life with no joy. I don’t ever want to be stuck that scares me more than anything right now. I don’t know why I keep getting told no, everyone is saying “NO!” I hate hearing “no.” it doesn’t make me angry it just makes me sad. Everyone wants something I don’t have. If I don’t have what people need what good am I? I know there is some one out there who needs me. I know I have a place but why isn’t it one of the seven or so places/things/people I have tried already? Hmm… that thought cheered me up actually. Even though I have been turned down a lot the past two years I don’t think I’m quite on my last straw… come to think of it I can probably handle a lot more Nos and I will probably have to. I am glad I will find something/someone/someplace someday.